Happily, I LOVE myself, in the purest, least narcissistic way imaginable. I take care of myself with a TON of personal development books, I fuel my body with good food, I surround myself with good and positive people, I have a strong sense of belonging and purpose in this world, I am deeply connected to my Spiritual support, I have a beautiful and busy business from home, I even feed my spirit with treats like fresh flowers from the market, fresh ground coffee, and I LOVE feeding the birds outside. These are all things that I do for myself, OUT OF LOVE.
Let me also let you in on a secret. Getting myself to a place of Self Love, and being open to receiving love and blessings as well was HARD WORK!
If you would have brought the topic of Self Love up to me three or four years ago, it would have been a completely different story! I hated myself. I was depressed, hated where we lived, had no self confidence, thought I was useless, fat, and a dead weight to my husband a kids. I viewed myself as a financial burden because I didn’t have my own income. I was unhealthy, unfit, sleep deprived, way to concerned with mundane materialism, and I was running on empty with a cloud constantly over my shoulder.
I was putting all of my energy into taking care of my little ones, I had none left over for my husband or myself, or my LIFE. After I had children I never made myself or my health a priority. NOT ONCE, NOT EVER.
I didn’t have goals set to help me obtain my dreams, and quite frankly I didn’t feel like I deserved to have my own dreams. I was lucky if I was motivated enough to take a daily shower. Depression at it’s darkest. Well, that changed once I realized that I was draining my own battery and never filling it back up. I was giving ALL of my love AWAY but never putting it BACK IN. I had this false belief.
I believed that it was other people’s job to love me.
It was my husbands job to make me feel beautiful and tell me I was worthy and appreciated. It was my parents job to tell me I was doing a good job and they were proud of me. It was my friends job down the road to tell me I was being a great mom, and the beat goes on…. I was always thirsty for a source of love outside of myself. Starving for it actually! I lived and worked and tried to function with an empty tank for years, and everything around me was falling apart. How can you expect other people to be your source of life, energy, and motivation? You can’t. That is a completely unrealistic expectation to put on another individual who is working their way through their own life.
The the light bulb went on.
You CAN’T WORK on an empty tank. You can’t take care of other people if you don’t take care of yourself. Alysia, WAKE UP. You MUST be the source of your own happiness.
I knew that I needed to reconnect with my Spirit (which had left me somewhere along the way during my self manifested misery). I knew that I had to let go of control and fear and put my faith and trust in whatever other higher power was out there. I personally was too weak to heal myself and my life, alone. Call it God, the Universe, Mother Nature, whatever that larger source of love was. At the time I didn’t believe in God. In fact, I openly called myself an Atheist, But when I hit my lowest of lows, I was desperate, and wanted with all of my heart for something larger than me to exist, and pull me out of the dark whole that I had been dwelling in. I would literally say each and every morning, out loud, “Where is the love?”!!! I would look for it, be open to it, physically opening the shades in the morning to bring the light from the sun into my space. I would search for it within myself writing all the positive things that I could about Me and the World into an old notebook, night after night. I cleared out all of the negativity in my life, and clutter, and I began to see all of my blessings and all of my strengths and I started to take care of my body by MOVING IT, and I started to fuel my body with better food and more water. I started to CARE about me, and I started to ask God to come into my life as well, and for the first time I was really OPEN to receiving love. I finally felt that I deserved it. I changed the vibration frequency in which I was living from a very negative one to a very positive one. The change happened very quickly. My spirit filled me again and my life in it’s entirety blossomed! I surrounded myself with high vibration objects like healing crystals, essential oils, beautiful pictures of things found in nature that made me feel good, and read more and more personal development books! It wasn’t anyone else’s job to fill my tank. It was my own job to clear out the crap, lift myself up and let the light in!
I’m not telling you to find God. Who am I to tell you what you need? That will come to you in time, when, where and if you are meant to. I am simply encouraging you to find yourself, on purpose, ask for help when you need it, and recognize all of you that is beautiful, deserving and able! 🙂
“Where is the love?”
Hey,Pretty Blossom! Are you lost and running on empty? Do you need help with Self Love? Do you need help with clearing out negativity so that you can make space in your life for things that are beautiful and positive?
I put this kit together to help you with doing all of the above! 🙂 I hope it brings peace, joy, and immeasurable love and light to you thorough your darkest days! may it be a source of encouragement to you on your journey of self healing and improvement, and may it be a stepping stone for you in the right direction.
What is in this kit?
Rose Quarts- Promotes the giving and receiving of unconditional love
Smokey Quartz- Absorbs and purifies negative energy
Peace Essential Oil Blend- Encourages you to take personal responsibility for yourself and your life, and find peace and closure for what is, allowing you to move forward in a new and more positive direction without fear
Cheer- Uplifts your mood, encouraging you to act, speak, and think from a cheerful confidant and optimistic mind set
Tools for Smudging:
Incents and Sage Smoke beautifully purifies the energy of your space, clearing away any stagnant negative energy that may be weighing you down. If you don’t like burning sage, or have young children in your home, you may appreciate this smoke-free smudging “recipe” (made from essential oils) that I have listed for your here. Whatever your preferred smudging method is, I recommend smudging every month (more frequent if needed) to ensure that your space always feels airy and filled with good vibes! 🙂